I feel like lately I can’t talk to anybody about anything because everyone has their own thing going for them and it just don’t feel like a lot is going on for me right now. My depression and anxiety this whole year has been at an all time high because my doctor recommended trying to go off my medication which was a terrible mistake, and has led to terrible depression and anxiety. My social anxiety has been so bad, and I feel like I don’t have anything to say to anyone, and I feel like people think I’m a bitch but I promise I’m not I’m just in my own mind and it sucks. I never know what to say to anybody and I get so nervous and scared to talk to people on a daily basis. Every time I go out I tell myself to be happy, but then I get super sad and depressed and I feel like there’s no point in anything. I just feel like such a burden to everyone around me and i just feel really alone, so I’ve been trying to go out more and meet new people but in the end I just am so quiet and reserved and I hate it. My love life has sucked this whole time too and it’s all my fault because I missed my chance all because of my anxiety and it’s really not fair and I’m so sick and tired of this and I feel like nobody understands me. I’m trying to be nice to everybody an I made up with everybody I’ve had problems with in the past and I just want to be accepted and people don’t realize how hard it is for me to walk into work and school everyday with a smile on my face because the past few years I just really haven’t been happy. I’ve tried and tried to go out and be myself, but I just can’t. It’s so frustrating for people to ask what’s wrong because I feel like they think I’m just making up excuses but I’m not. I really likes this guy too and things went so shitty because it just wasn’t the right time and now I missed my chance and I’m trying to move on but it’s so difficult. I feel like everyone around me is moving in except for me.